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Today was a long day.

Back 2 School

So today went by really fast work was a blur and it was time to go to school. I met up with Navia and went to 7-Eleven when it finally hit us. WE WERE GOING TO SCHOOL. We got to our first class and talked about the teacher trying to rip us of the entire class. I went to my next class and it was really fun. I'm gonna love this class not to mention my teacher is like Jim Carey's long lost older brother. After class we went to go visit Joe but we took the scenic right. GOD I LOVE CHICAGO!!

**we got to see Joe yay.. he was drinking while at work how horrible is that**

Port of Subs

This morning i woke up at Cynthia's laying next to her brother and some girl and i was completely hung over. I came home and knocked the fuck out for 20 minutes. lol Woke up took my sis to the train took a shore and went to Jerry's. We watched Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas and didn't even get to finish because GOING NO WHERE FAST Andy was talking shit. He was name dropping and he knew it was getting to me but that's with people with no one do. They talk shit and that's why people only like them for so long. But whatever I'm not going to bash someone who is a waste of fucking space. He should just die. Nobody wants him around. Anyways we left the house because of this cunt sucking prick and we went to pick up fat downtown and went to port of subs. Where we enjoyed the Cheese fries, Cheeseburger vanilla shake, chocolate shake and chili ♥. It was a good night we got home and knocked the hell out. I love my life. I love that those who try to keep me down but taking cheap shots at my feelings. But they don't remember I'm Carissa i have no feelings only one has my heart.
I SHOW NO MERCY TO ANYONE!

Happy Birthday Lil Bear

We've been waiting and hes finally here. Lil Bear lol corny i know but he arrived this evening and he looks like his Mommy he will probably grow out of it though and look like bear. Congrats Maria and Bear.

Love+Respect+Trust=a relationship

So todat was fun went to the Dentist and then the Doctor and then to get a car wash and after that gas. I got home watched superbad and some other movie i cant think of right now.. so its pretty early in the morning i cant sleep and this is my horoscope

August 21, 2008

One of your most important relationships are going through a transition right now, and while it might be uncomfortable and worrisome for a while, it will all work out for the best in the end. In the meantime, you should go out and start exploring other kinds of relationships. Find out for yourself what it's like to be an independent person without any alliances to hold you back. And no matter how wonderful an alliance is, it is still something that limits your freedom.

The crazy thing is G boy has been telling me this for the longest i guess he was right. If its meant to be it will be and if all his trust for me is lost because some low life wants to make up bullshit stories then so be it. I am not talking to anyone nor do i plan to. On that note i will leave you with this quote.

“Believe none of what you hear and half of what you see.” Benjamin Franklin

Today was a bad day.

I woke up late, i forgot something at home. Got on the train and who is the last person i expected to see on the train, if you guessed Luis your right. I felt like i was on the raging bull and my stomach just dropped in awe. Im trying so hard not to think of him and let him be and by some higher power i saw him. I hated it. I feel like shit i was doing so good and now i feel like im just a waste of space. God truly finds the need to fuck me over. Fuck this.

I just don know what there is anymore, i act as if im ok and i know im not. Everyone knows it. What is wrong with me im so pathetic. I knew better i took a vow not to fall in love again and i slipped, such a beautiful thing is not meant to last. There isnt any going back to the good times and hes officially over everything and acts as if he never went out of his way to make me happy or that he didnt come to my house everyday and we would just talk for hours. Its so much better to be a bitch than sit here and expect things of people or letting things you feel take over. I swear i hope there is something greater than the world we live in.

Orange Moon

So it was a very boring day as far as work goes and after that i came home to take my mother to get some comida.. i left my house and had a awesome ass cruise down the Dan Ryan. Doing 87 down the Ryan is so much fun.. you dont even feel it. Anyways i made it to Logan Square where i found a high Niko blown out of her mind waiting for someone to cook turkey burgers. Went inside to find salem laid out as usual and the Olympics.. Woo Hoo Kerri Walsh What What..i got an urgent text that some beers needed rescuing so i had to save the day but as i left the moon shocked me it was fucking ORANGE.

It was beautiful, on the ride home i listened to some house music and drove with the moon. Made it to G Boys house where we talked about sex and slapping girls with cocks and putting them in there place. Along with 4speed being a virgin for his remaining years on Earth. Great Convo. The night ended with us taking shots with the paint ball gun at a Spider who was clearly out to get us. This whole not talking to Luis thing hurts but i have great friends to take my mind off of it.

Happy 15th Anniversary

So its the 1 year and 3 month mark, and this is the last anniversary i will mention forever im assuming. I will never get over Luis and i will never forget the things we shared and the crazy shit we did. I didnt really realize at the time that he was everything i wanted and needed. He did alot for me and i was to stubborn to pay attention to what really mattered. He was such a good boyfriend and i let him slip away. It is true that you dont realize what you have until its gone, all that we fought about doesnt even matter, i see that i should have excepted things as they were.

"Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. "- The notebook

i took you for granted..

i miss you being too comfortable in my house .... macaroni being our specialty dish .... fighting in the dead of winter on commercial .... knocking out to the point were we both snoring crazy style.... every cherry ring pop you bought me...i miss the love ♥ 5.16.07